Hello
Thank you so much for your lovely comments on my previous post.
To be honest this week has been unbelievably hard. Sunday was spent nursing a headache and in tears all day.
Monday I went to work but leaving the house was incredibly difficult as I would usually say bye to Tom...I just felt so sick. I got to the bus stop and burst into tears (luckily there was no one there). When I got to my desk I literally burst into tears...I was sent home!
Tuesday was just awful, work told me to take another day off as I felt so upset. I had feelings of guilt and made myself feel so ill.
I went back to work yesterday and it was hard but I tried to put on a brave front.
Today I felt slightly better as I had a chat with the vet who treated Tommy, she assured me I did the best and our decision was the right one. She explained that he had developed full blown AIDS and that if he had come home with us he would have died a slow painful death as his organs would have shut down one by one. She said he could have had a blood transfusion but it would have only lasted 24 hours as his red blood cells were just being killed off. He had severe anemia. I am trying to move on, I knew I would miss Tommy when he went, but the pain I feel is just unimagineable.
Strangely the only time I feel comfort is at night time as I feel he is with us. We have his blanket on the bottom of our bed and I just feel him there like a warmth, its hard to explain. Even when I walk past the bed at night I feel it. I love him so much and will never ever forget him.
I thought I would try and make a comeback to the blog and thought I would post an outfit I wore last Saturday...this was the day Tommy, rest his soul died. Little did I know that when I took this photo that sunny Saturday morning my little baby would be leaving us! I definitely would not have worn such a pretty pink dress otherwise!
Dress with belt - Internacionale
Sequin floral pumps - Primark
Please excuse what I am doing with my hand....I was tring to move my hair...!
I totally love this bargainous dress. I bought this after the lovely Charlotte of http://charly-sciencegeekchic.blogspot.co.uk/ recommended it to me as she is saw it on Internacionale's website. Its amazing how someone you only know from blogging can know you so well.
I had some really good buys at the jumble sale but I shall blog about these at a later date when I feel more up to it.
Take care and once again thank you all so much for your kind words.
Lisa-Jane
xx